boring old days, drifting away

(it's been a while since i posted on not private. there are reasons, which friends who also know me in RL know. if you want to know more, hit me up on IM or something)

So, I like reading other people's blogs. Even (or perhaps especially) people I've never met or only met once or twice. As time goes by, and the words flow across the screen, I get to know them. Dreams, weaknesses, fears, elation, and loss all in 12pt font in my little bedroom. Maybe I'll never met these people, but I still have a personal interest in their lives. I'm sad when they slowly stop posting as often or switch to a platform I don't use.

But what I'm trying to say at this midnight hour, is that I admire them. I adore the reams of their lives they record and share, the shifts in writing styles from morning, noon, and late at night. To me, looking at these people is like looking at facets of humanity.

Or something. Have I mentioned that it's way past my bedtime? Hence the florid prose. It's hard to stop and judge what looks good when I get tired.

So what I'm leading up to, is that I've been inspired by cesperanza and astolat's 30 day journaling thing. So I'm going to try it. This might be the third or forth time I've decided to do something like this (and the the fact I'm doing it half asleep might not be good either), but I'll never be able to do anything if I didn't keep trying.

So yeah.

Today, I went to the farmer's market, and bought lots of yummy things. I'm also getting worried by how much I've been enjoying microgreens. They're expensive, but oh so tasty, and I indifferent enough to most leafy greens that any type of green I do like should be added to my diet. Maybe I should try growing them myself too? idk

Also, I got my pre-order of Vienna Teng's latest album today. There's a stream of it here you can listen to (legally!). It's a more message oriented than her previous albums and her sound has changed a little, as musicians tend to do. I wish there was a little more in the way of piano ballads, but I like it. Especially the first song, Level Up.  

Ah, fandom wise? I'm back into FFVII, for the first time in a few years. So far I'm planning to make a moogle dog coat (my Mae-dog needs something for Halloween!) and have been poking at fics. 

I sometimes wonder about my childhood self. I was reading edenfalling 's analysis of the Disney and BBC versions of The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe, and suddenly remember that when I was about 4 or 5,  after I'd seen BBC's version of LWW for the first (of many) time(s), I was Aslan for that Halloween. Not Lucy, nor Susan, not even Jadis, but Aslan.

Maybe I wasn't as aware of gender as I thought then? But I remember being hyper aware of it...

To my immune system:

If I could fire you, I totally would. Yes, really. I'm sick again.

No love,

Me

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. FUCK.

Just found out that the I was refused for helth insurace. Fuck. Becuase I recurringly sprained my wrist. Yeah. And being refused once red flags me. All I wanted was coverage in case of something catastrophic. That's all.

So.

I've been more or less hiding on the internet recently.

Been really a month, minus the job search whining. That's going better now, by the way. My resume got spiffier. I'm even applying to a job near Tokyo in my other non-Japanese major's field. This makes me happy.

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It's getting cold now, when I went outside to feed the cat, I went right back in to grab a jacket.

It's kinda weird to be back at home with my mom this time of year. It's been three years since I've had a fall with her, and it's disquieting that this could be the last one I could have with her. I'm really enjoying it though, but I'm not sure if that's just because my father's been really busy at work (tends to go in by 8, comes back for dinner at 6, and half the time goes back to work). Anyways, I went walking with her for about an hour yesterday at the local march restoration project and pointed to about every plant in sight and asked her what it was. She knew most of them, but she wants to go back with a camera for a few she couldn't identify. Operation Get Mom to Exercise seems to be a success (seriously, she said we could walk for half an hour, and we nearly spent two).

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Writing wise, the sequel to Graveside Conversations has stolen my muse away from me. 10,000 words and counting. I'm not going to post anything until I get it all straight, but I think it might be done by Christmas, if the muse stays.

In other happy news, I'm should be going to SugoiCon this October, barring an interview that Friday or such. Anyone else out there going?

I've also been sewing some, and hopefully I'll have a skirt done in a few days. I finished sewing in the lining last night, but I need to hem it and paint it, since I'm going for this funky b&w checkered look, with uneven checks (...and yeah, that last bit makes things so much easier). If it looks good, I think I might post a picture~!

I also have the house to myself, and this is truly a wonderful feeling. If I wanna listen to J-rock in the basement at three in the morning while sewing and cursing, who's gonna stop me?

I think I'm sick again. Except that I'm really not sure if that's true. Hm.
( whining about my panicking )

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Figured that it might be a good idea to update this.

In RL:
I moved. I hate this place.
I went on vacation and met up with urplesquirrel there.
We wrote some stuff together.... about 26 pages of stuff in two weeks.

Parts should be up later today. In other news I'm writing more and hope to have the rest of WotM up in two weeks.

Writing Progress:

Chapter 38 of WotM -- ??% written (I need to find my notebooks and get the whole bloody thing together.)
Chapter 39 of WotM -- 30%
Chapter 3 of WotC -- 75%
Chapter 1 of Or Something Like It (yes, the new project 'Im working on with urplesquirrel) --99%  (editing)

Or Something is hopefully going to get written quickly due to there being two of us. It's YGO and the pairing is Yuugi/Atem. It's post-manga-ish, with stuff drawn from the anime. The original concept was urplesquirrel's.


Other fics are being worked on, so something might pop up every now and then that's a decent length.

I'm right now as sick as a dog. bleeehhhhhh.

Writing wise some done, we'll see.