Life?

[stellawind]

I think I'm sick again. Except that I'm really not sure if that's true. Hm.

I've been tying myself up in knots over this "big change, go live by myself thing." And it really doesn't make sense, ya'know? It's inevitable that this was going to happen, I've always known that I was going to have my own life someday. Still, I panic, looking at my resume and my cover letters, using the excuse that they aren't utterly prefect to keep for sending them off. I tend to plan ahead, a lot. I was planning to teach English in Japan for a year or so, before the economy tanked and most companies had a hiring freeze.

Yeah, I have another major, but it wasn't in my plan which makes things weird. Sure, it was my hypothetical back-up plan, but to be fair it wasn't even plan C. I know that it is what I want to do, but it wasn't in the right order, which kinda freaks me out.

I get a little obsessive about my plans and "the way things should be" sometimes. I hadn't realized how bad that could be sometimes until now.

*shrug*